JEW FEST 2002

'Twas interesting.
Not much happened.... My cousins got "drunk" and made tinfoil hats on the first night.

Second night was uneventful..

The end.

Quote of the weekend:
"Have you ever made out with a girl?"
"No."
"See Andy, I told you."
My uncles asking me if I ever made out with a girl.

Oh what to do, what to do...

Watch The Real World marathon or read Emma for my English class?

I don't really have any homework this weekend..
I could start Chem and I have an extra credit math worksheet.
And I'll try to finish Emma.. but that's not likely.

So bored.. I have like... 2 hours until I'm going out.

I'm gonna waste some time.

I'll make a list.
Ok.. Umm

Top 5 Albums and their reasons:

5. Nelly Furtado- Whoa Nelly!
Sure, she looks pure and innocent but her CD is just laced with swear words. Her album has an ethnic vibe to it and not one song sounds exactly the same, which is hard to say about some pop CDs nowadays (No offense to Britney or Nsync. I have their albums too).
Fav song on album: Hey Man

4. P!nk- M!zunderstood
Waay better than her Freshman album which had like.. 2 good songs on it. This one was written mostly by P!nk herself and is a completely different style from her previous work. Towards the end the songs get slower, but P!nk can carry those songs pretty well.
Fav song on album: (tie) Don't Let Me Get Me & Numb

3.Something Corporate- Leaving Through The Window
They're serious (Hurricane), they're funny (If U C Jordan). They're... a garage style band playing the Warped tour with a piano? Yea, and it totally works for them.
Fav song on the album: Drunk Girl

2. Avril Lavigne- Let Go
Yea, yea, yea. Avril does get a lot of flak. "She doesn't play her own guitar!" "She's not punk!"- You're right. She's not. She's a frickin' poser. Wear the tie all you want Miss Lavigne- You're pop all the way. (I mean come on.. listen to your CD. What's punk about it? How you croon about wishing your life away with an acoustic guitar you're NOT playing?) But I'm gonna listen to whatever I like. I happen to like this CD.
Fav song on album: Naked

And the number one album is............
GREEN DAY- WARNING:
Come on, did you expect anything else for number one from me? It's the first Green Day cd I ever bought. It's the one I'm most comfortable with and love even though all of their 'punk' fans hate it. You know what punk people? I don't care what you think. I think it was their coming of age album. I could analyze it more, but I know none of you care.
Fav song on album: Waiting


Others that didn't quite make the cut-

Britney- Britney
I admit it, I enjoy listening to this CD.... and yes. I can sing all of the songs.
Fav song on album: Boys

Buffy The Vampire Slayer: The Album
Summer of '99 this was all I listened to on repeat 24 hours a day. Seriously, because I never slept. And ok, yes I admit it was during my Buffy obsession stage.. but it still has good music on it.
Fav song on album: "I quit" by Hepburn

OK, I've bored all of you well enough..
I'm off.

Oh my G0d I am so sick of fighting!
And its like, barely fighting. Its like.. not talking. Lots of not talking. It sucks.

Anyway....
Other than that the day was still crap!


Ahh...

Quote of the day:
Mrs. Sandberg: "If you draw me a stick figure make sure you put clothes on them!"
Laura: "Why? Stick figures don't have parts."
Alison: "Stick figures have parts. You just can't see them..."
Stefi: "Yea, see Jenna? I told you. Its ok. You have parts. You just can't see them."
Jenna: "Ugh. I wouldn't be talking."

Well, school was its usual dark and depressing self.

If I didn't have a math test tomorrow I'd be "sick". I'll try to get my mom to at least pick me up before 7th hour Drama.

Quote of the day:
Jenna: "Stefi, did you NOT hear Mrs. Sandberg say 'Second climax'?"
Stefi: "Oh, yea. I did, but I had more than four hours of sleep last night so I didn't find it funny. I snickered though.. if that helps any."
-- Jenna astonished that I didn't laugh at "A surprise second climax where there is usually falling action." And yea, ok, its kinda funny. I admit that... but only during English class where you look at lint for entertainment during the 45 minute class period.

Crap day, not going into detail.

Things either start out really bad and get better or are really good and then suddenly plummet. What's up with that?

September 11th anniversary incase none of you knew that. Everyone was really sad today. Its such a shame. This time last year, my mom was in England and couldn't get home because of the attacks. I feel bad thinking about how much I wanted her home when there were so many people who lost their family and would never see them again. I was lucky. I knew my mom was coming home eventually. It doesn't seem like it was a year does it? Maybe that's because its been so drawn out?

Quote of the day:
Stefi: "Aw look, Its a September 11th celebration!"
Alicia: "Where did we go wrong?"
Stefi: "I think it was the glitter and the balloons."
-- Alicia and me discussing how our Advanced World History class over-did the September 11th memorial board (It looked like the fourth of July, seriously) Our thanks to Alison and Skylar for taking control and screwing it up!

Half Day! Woo

So let's see.. No homework.. well, except for Chem but that's due Thursday.

Ugh today was the day I had to do my scene with Hunter in drama.
Ok, this kid, doesn't act. So I pleaded with him to just TRY and practice the scene.

He refused.

Our scene was horrific.

Hunter refuses to show emotion. Its like Ben Stine in those Visine commercials. Seriously.
So I'm getting into my whole Mary Warren scene and he doesn't even have the thing memorized. I was like.. omg. I was really mad. It wasn't even a long scene or anything. Ugh, I hate drama too, but the least you could do is try. I mean, really.

But yea.. so Mr. Bush gave us these evaluation things today on the back of our essays (All 100%s by the way. Oh if only English class was that easy) and he wrote that I was doing really well in every aspect of the class. That made me happy. I'm doing good in all of my classes. Please G0d I can keep it up. Rosie might be a challenge (Might be? What am I saying. Half the kids I know who took it last year failed!) and English I know is going to get more difficult, but Sandberg is great. This time last year I was already making fun of Moline and I have yet to make fun of Mrs. Sandberg. I haven't really found any thing to mock.. and then I'd feel bad cuz she's so nice. lol I'll spend my time making fun of Mr. Bush then...

Quote of the day:
Sandberg: "The man made the woman lust for the bull... so does anyone know the story? Do you know what happened next?"
Stefi: "Beastiality?"
Sandberg: "The bull and the woman...you know... Yea.."
Class: "Eeewww"
Sandberg: "And when they came together-"
Stefi: "Oh my G0d its 8th grade all over again......"
Sandberg: "They created a little.. half bull/half person. Thus the minotaur. Ok. Open your textbooks to page 29!"
-- Mrs. Sandberg and her 3rd hour english class.

"So what did you and John do this weekend?"
"Stuff..."
-- Matt talking to Amanda Curran.

Thanks for the quote Matty lol

Today was nice and simple.

I got the Target name tag from Matty! It's so cool! It says Sheldon on it and everyone I know wants one now too but they can't cuz I'm the only special one :)

I fell asleep during Mrs. Sturgell's class for like... 2 minutes maybe. We were taking notes and I was done, the lights were off... it was all too convenient. Still bad. I'm going to have to go to bed earlier tonight. (Oh that's a joke)

Mr. Bush asked me to audition today for the school production of "Once Upon a Mattress" but I told him I couldn't..
I don't sing so why would I bother? I don't want to audition and then get the part of Peasant #4 ya know? Or even worse- No part at all! lol I am content singing to Avril, Brits, and Green Day and re-enacting movie scenes in the comfort of my own home. I don't need an audience. I am my own audience....

Anyway..

Oh! Like, for a year and a half I've wanted this Tiffany necklace and my mom finally got it for me! I am so excited! She told me it was an early Chanukkah gift. It's really simple and pretty and yea, ok so every other girl on the planet has one... but I don't care. Now I have one too. I'm one of them..

Ok, well now that I've told you the day's news I'm off to do my homework.

Quote of the day:
NONE! Send me something funny and I'll put it in.

This weekend was nice. Friday was Rosh Hashana so my mom's family came out to celebrate with us and my uncle surprised us and came into town.

Saturday my monitor died on me so we bought a new one which is really nice. It's a flat screen and very pretty. I'd name it but Matt won't let me. Apparently, I already named the computer so I can't name the parts.

Sunday, which is today.. I did nothing. My dog woke me up at 9 because she was weezing and couldn't breathe and then she threw up. It was awful, she just wasn't feeling well at all.

I did my chem and Matt you're not online...

Not much to say.. Well, there is but too many people read this..

OK. I won't bore you anymore.
Have a good week everyone!

Quote of the day:
"Well, you are dating that 5 year old.... what's her name? Muffy?"
"Alison..."
"You know, if she's ever cranky and you want to keep her amused, just jiggle your car keys in front of her face. They like the clinking sound."
"You think you're so clever."
"You're right. I do."
-- Me teasing my Uncle Andy about his 24 year old g/f (he's 40) at tea. (Yes.. he came to my house for tea. Get over it.)

Today was Friday and the entire day seemed to just drag on.... it was going sooo slow.

Took my Spanish test. I was half asleep seriously, so I hope I did well. Umm.. In Chem I made fun of Thomas.. and in English I made fun of Thomas.. that's always entertaining.. (no harm, T Dawg.)

New kid in my drama class. He's so ugly but he's nice. I'm thinking of trying out for the school musical but that's really a laugh considering I can't sing at all.

After school I hung out with Heath for a bit for like, the first time in forever. He has barely been over since school started, but he had to go to his dad's so he left and now I'm writing in my blog before my mom asks me to do something else before our family gets here for the Jewish New Year's dinner we're having.

La Shanah Tovah to all of my Jew friends. (and even the non-Jews if they wish to feel included.)

Oh and can everyone please pray for my TiVo? Its sick and not working. Keep Stefi's TiVo in your thoughts and prayers everyone. Thanks.

Quote of the day:
"You named your stirring rod Topher?"
-- Mrs. Rosenberg a little scared by the fact that my lab partner and I named our lab equipment.

Today was boring really.

Nothing particularly interesting happened...
Oh, the electricity went out so I didn't have to take my audio Spanish test. That was nice.
Then it came back on and I was forced into the realm of Chem Class with Rosie which actually wasn't too bad today. We watched this cheesy movie on lab safety and Thomas tried to insult me
(Rosie: "Its just worthless stuff."
Thomas: "Like Stephanie?")
but Rosie stuck up for me (We Jews stick together.) and Thomas looked like an idiot (serves you right for even attempting to out do me in the random shout out department, ass.)

A ton of homework tonight so I better get on that..

Quote of the day:
"Did you just wink at Heath?"
"Yea, I wonked at Heath. Did I just say 'wonked' ?"
"Wow, you just said 'wonked' "
-- Stefi and a sleep deprived Matty

Quick note for Jenna- Yes, you are a comforter. Like one big fluffy blanket. I thank you for that.

Not much to report today.
Is there ever a lot to report? It amazes me that I can write so much on so little.

Let's see..
Spanish was boring and my teacher is not only extremely crabby but I have found she sounds like Frankie Muniz while he was going through his "changes".
Time spent wasted drawing on my notebook- 47 minutes.


Chem.
Well, I had like 3 people at the same time ask me to be their lab partner (I know, weird, cuz its me.) but Amanda Caringy (Caringe?) asked me first- so... Sorry T Dawg- Sorry Blonde girl who sits in front of me. Amanda won.

English- Oh Jenna. How we make each other laugh and giggle and throw up..

Sturgell- Yes, I call world history Sturgell. The class is boring but Sturgell is great. I hate to say I'm teacher's pet.. but I am.

Lunch- Well, I was supposed to work on the script today but that never happened... instead lunch was spent "doing homework" (since Matt basically sits there and kinda looks at the paper and then says something funny to hide the fact that he's not doing his homework) and making fun of D Man and hey, I'm always there for a good mock fest.

I'll skip math since it was boring and in Drama all we did was cold read The Crucible.
Again.
And I found out we'll be doing it tomorrow too! ...............
It's not too bad. I'm Mary Warren. She pops in randomly every now and then. Keeps me awake.

I'm off to do my homework.


Quote of the day:
"At least wait until you're actually dating."
- Me telling D Man to wait on telling this girl that he loves her.

Well, school was umm, interesting to say the least. And I feel bad.. kinda, sorta.. ok, really not really at all.

Things happened and then stuff happened and then... so eww and no. (Juana and Ahem Evad- Stop laughing. I see you smirking.)

Of all people I mean honestly. Really. Is it too much to ask for some decent people?
And so I changed the subject? I can always pretend like I didn't realize or something... Its ok... its ok.

(I know not everyone is gonna understand this entry- Sorry.)

Oh and by the way- I hate Skylar and Alison. It's official. Go us, Shelbo.

Quote of the day:
Stefi: What if we just numbered the rows?
Skylar: No, that wouldn't work.
::2 minutes later::
Alison: What if we wrote little numbers next to the rows and then everyone would know what row it was?
Skylar: Yea, that's good! Hey, did you guys just hear what Alison said?
Stefi: Yea, I said that like two minutes ago.
Skylar: Well, whatever.
Stefi: You look like a pirate today.
Skylar: What?
Stefi: Nothing.

Special Happy Da Birthday Ve to prag!

Tomorrow is school.
Oh well.

Let's see I've spent my day (all 3 hours of it so far since I got up at noon) doing homework and being confused.
Things are so weird right now.

What's up with that? Everyone needs to start acting normal again!
Or maybe I'm not acting normal?

My world is askew.

On a normal weekend that was not a three day weekend, tomorrow would mean school.

But today is kinda like a Saturday, so tomorrow is more like Sunday making Tuesday our starting point of the week. We can completely skip over Monday.
See how that works?

Today was nice. I spent the day with my Mommy and my sister then did my drama essay (that's a laugh.) and most of my chem (which I'll probably finish later tonight) Ooo crap.. I forgot I had that essay for Sturgell to do.. ok, I'll do that tonight too.

So much work, its maddening.
I'll write more if anything of any interest happens, but that's not very likely.

Saturday.

Listen to that word. Say it aloud. Kind of rolls off the tongue.

Lovely. A 3 day weekend which means a 4 day school week that includes a half day.
Nice.

My dad is gone until Wednesday. He's in Santa Barbara helping my Uncle David move.

I have a ton of homework to do this weekend so I guess I'll start on that...

I'm supposed to go over to Lindsey's today too so I better call her to see what's going on.
I have no news. Nothing of interest to say. So I'll go now.
Maybe something cool will happen..

I'm at school right now, in the library. "Writing my essay" and bored.

And FREEZING.

I should be working on drama essay number 3, but I so can't be bothered. I found this one site that will make it really easy to do anyway so it won't be that bad. Take me an hour at most.

So now I'm just "free stylin'" as my little friend Nicki next to me says (she thinks she's black). She's watching an Eminem video on Launch.com. I am so surprised that she hasn't ditched yet. Usually by this time she is long gone off at the "bathroom".

I hate the kids in this class. And Palmer won't let me switch.
Its for reasons like this Ms. Palmer that they have not moved you into a larger office.
Until you do some good for your students, you will not get a larger office either.

As for the rest of the day-
This morning started off kind of crappy, but it got better. Mornings usually suck.
Today is Friday.
VIERNES!
Woo in 20 minutes I get to go home!

So close yet so so very far.

Quote of the day:
"I'll be your friend if you give me head."
"Um.... ah, no."
-- T Dawg with Stefi replying

Eh. School.


It's good.
It's bad.
It's everything inbetween.
I deal.

My teachers love me though. Makes me feel kinda special... in a dorky way.
Sandberg used my timed writing today as an example for the class. That was nice.

Went to drama club... Its amazing. I always forget about the freaks who go there. (no offense..)
Like, in the beginning of the year, you get a lot of people. Even some who are normal. The black box (drama room) was totally packed. By the end of the year though, all you have left are the ten drama freaks.

Usually, I stop going by the third meeting.

And then there's Mr. Bush who sits in the back like a little shrink taking notes on everything on a legal pad.
He is so weird.

Lunch was fun today. All T Dawg (I can't believe you actually got me to call you that, Thomas), Jenna, Meha, and I did was laugh. I needed that. We laughed so hard over nothing. It was like we went back to 7th grade. I mean, we were laughing hysterically over the sentence "He struck the hoe" from English during 3rd hour. We couldn't stop.

We are sad, sad children.

OMG, there was this terrible accident at school. It was fatal, at least one boy died. It made me feel horrible. The next few days will be hard for a lot of people at school. I'm wishing long life for their families.

Finished most of my essays. Less work for the three day weekend.

Ahhhh the three day weekend.
Those glorious weekends with the extra day.
Also known as the 'long weekend'.

Like havin' a little summer in the middle of a school year.
Thank G0d. It's only been two weeks, but I need the break. lol

Quote of the day:
"Haha. You said hoe!"
"What about Skylar?"
- Jenna and Stefi

You know- Today could have sucked.
But during 2nd hour I adopted the "I don't care. Whatever." attitude.
and it turned out to be a decent day.

Screw Palmer though for not even caring that I am hating school.
Karma Ms. Palmer. Karma. You could have done something nice. You could have helped me out, but did you? No. You didn't.

Oh and then, earlier that day I had a really nice funny moment in Sandberg's class. You kinda have to be there, but I said my funny bit and everyone laughed. It was really good. So I'm at lunch telling my friends about my glory back in 3rd hour when one of them, Crazy Eyed Meha (not to be confused with BROWN eyed Jenna lol DUDE I knew your eyes were green! I mean BROWN. BROWN.) piped up "I have english 4th hour (the hour after I have it) and Sandberg said practically that same thing and everyone laughed."

SANDBERG STOLE MY FUNNY LINE!
Amazing. And SHE talks about plagiarism.
Can I sue for that?


I finished most of my homework. Well, the immediate stuff.

I have 4 essays to write that are all due on Tuesday. It’s insane. INSANE I tell you!

A 5 page essay on Salem Witch trials for DRAMA?

Its true.

Oh well.


Cela est la vie.

Today seemed very Monday-ish to me.
I'm not having the best time at school... Hopefully it'll pick up. I don't know. I spent last night venting to Matt and D Man (thank you Matt so much for listening to all of my garbage. I know you didn't want to hear it for the 80th time.) and that helped a lot.. just letting it go.

I don't really have anything interesting to report.. Hopefully, if Palmer doesn't cancel again I can get drama switched (PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE) but the lady at the front desk was like "What did you need to see her for anyway?" and I said I wanted my classes changed and she said "Which classes?" and I said (being the dumb person I am) "My electives" and she made this face like "Ooooooooooooooooooooo another one bites the dust!" I'm sure she would have grabbed her crotch and spun around with one finger in the air too if she could have.

I'm off to do my homework. The fun never ends in the Land of Stefi.

Monday Monday... Wasn't actually that bad today...

1st hour- Rick was trying to talk to me.. I can't really be bothered with him though. Dude, his eyes are so nice. They are like, this really deep blue. That's something that he can go by, but I found out that he smokes (could smell it on him. ICK!) and that's not cool. Smoking isn't on my list of must haves for potentials.

Second hour.... nothing. Chem.
Third hour- English. Everyone who read my article on Jenna thought it was good so I'm pleased. I got a 50/50 on my letter essay thing too. So that was good.

fourth hour- I think I fell asleep... oh I took a quiz. lol It wasn't worth anything though so its ok. Sturgell is sooo boring omg!
5th hour- today at lunch, my friend Jenna was sitting with me and she was making fun of me for having cold chicken (she's a vegan) so when she wasn't looking, I tore off a piece of chicken and put it into her bag of nuts and what I think was supposed to be fruit. We laughed, we cried, she threatened, I took the chicken out.

6th hour was geometry and I doodled in that class because we were just going over the homework for the 50 minutes of class. I drew a nice rendition of my chemistry teacher Mrs. Rosenberg if anyone would like to see it.

7th hour my skit totally rocked... but I'm still gonna switch out I think... Just because I am teacher's pet is no reason for me to stay in and suffer.

I dunno. Dude, my day was all happy and then I came home and a few choice comments totally threw me off kilter so now I'm like in this mad/sad mood that sucks. I want to cry and possibly smash something all at the same time and no matter what I say, I can't get rid of these feelings and when I try to talk about them, people just get mad and defensive. I tried listening to music and everything but I can't shake it. Uuuugh I hate feeling like this. I'm off to go do homework and try to be happy...

Today- not so decent....

I dunno. I was tired and I felt really depressed and angry today. Maybe its lack of sleep.. I can think of a few reasons why I felt the way I did today. These are reasons non of you guys need to know... much less care about I'm sure.

Drama was... boring today. Spoke to Rick more. Turns out he kinda has the personality once he opens up.... but no looks.
Yea, he's just not cute anymore. I can't tell you why, but he's not. He has the Monet Factor sadly.

Told Rosenberg I was a Jew Girl today. I think she had multiple orgasms. I did it in a really sly way too as she was walking past my desk.
"Mrs. Rosenberg?"
::stops reluctantly.:: "Yes?"
"I just wanted to know if you'd ever have labs on a Jewish holiday because that would mean I'd be absent."
"Oh, oh! You! Ah! hahahaha! Not to worry at alllllllllllll. ::begins to whisper:: If you're not going to be here, that means I'm not going to be here! ::laughs:: "
"::I fake laugh too::"
"Did you know that we don't really miss any days this year?" (look how she grouped us up there. We're a team. We. Me and her. The Jews.)
"::fake interest:: Really?" (I'd swear here if I could. I can't though. But you know what I'm thinking.)
"Yea. All of the holidays fall on a Friday or Saturday and we have Yum Kippur Monday off!"
"That's great! (No, its really, really not.) Last year, it seemed like I was taking off every other day."
"Not to worry this year! Yea, I'm glad you asked about that!" (translation: "Oh thank G0d another Jew!")

So yea. Came home- crashed for 2 1/2 hours. And here I am...
I'm gonna go like.. write in my other journal now. lol the one y'all can't see...

Another decent day.

Surprised? Me too.

Nothing really happened though.
Cute guy still doesn't have a personality.
My spanish name is now Margarita Sparer.
I'm kinda wishing I picked Eva. You know, like Eva Peron.... no one knows who that is but me? Dude, you know, Evita? C'mon. MADONNA was in that movie....

Picture day. The guy who took my picture was rather jolly. He kept saying "Great smile, -insert kid's name here-!"

Matt and I decided we're not going to swear for a while.
I decided I would call this SWEAR FREE FOR ME.
I dunno, I'm bored. I just made that name up. Maybe I'll make a pleasant graphic for it tonight?

Annnnnnd not much else really...
Homework... a lot of it.. and I'm not sure I even really understand the math HW cuz I kinda spaced out for a while... I was drawing instead of note taking. Yea, I know- really clever considering my history in math.
I'm off to go start on the HW though.. If I need help I can call people.

Dude, today was actually like.... decent.
I am as surprised as you are.

So first hour- Spanglish. I spoke to cute non-personality boy. His name is Rick....
For homework we have to pick out our Spanish names. I'm thinking Margarita because they don't have an equivalent to Stephanie in the Spanish book and I'm not about to pick Sofia. Plus, Margarita is cool. Its also a popular alcholic beverage commonly served at single women gatherings.

Second: Chem- Rosenberg's going down.

Third hour is English 3 A/H/Pre-IB I love having that entire title. That's awesome. The class is also cool. Sandberg kind of reminds me of this old teacher I had, Mrs. Hunton.. I only had Hunton for like.. a month though because she decided to go have a baby on my honors class.

fourth hour I nearly fell asleep in Strugell's class...

fifth hour- lunch time was good today. But dude, Jenna, if you're reading this- buy some real food. Don't go all back to nature on me. You should start eating meat again.
Veal is good. Repeat. Veal is good.

Actually, I'd never eat veal... so you don't have to, but eat chicken. Chicken is good. C'mon.

6th hour- Geometry. I was so nervous about it. Its a math class. I suck at math.. but this student teacher in there was teaching us today and she actually did a good job. I actually understood what was going on. I surprised myself. Have you ever surprised yourself? Its weird.

7th hour- the Dreaded Drama Class
Dude, this teacher is like... so gay. Anyway-
OK, so like, I had to do this "A/B" scene with this girl Nickie. That's when its like, just simple dialogue and you take it and interpret it on your own. So we did this thing about how she thought she was Canadian and it was really funny. (And cleaner than this thing a Newbie did about masturbation. I won't even explain it. It was disgusting.) And like, usually, in the middle of scene.. sometimes not even in the middle, but two words into a scene, the Mr. Ilikeitintheass will stop you and make you start allllllll over again.... about 20 times until YOU get it the way HE likes it. Well, with us, he let us go and we did our thang and he came up to us and he looked mad and urgent, and he was like "You know what girls, I need to see you after school. We need to have a chat." and Nickie and I were like, What the hell did we do?! We thought we were in trouble and he wouldn't even explain it to us when we asked him. He just said it had to do with our performances and that he'd explain after school. I was like OK....

Nickie was going off about how she would totally tell him off if he went mad about the Canadian thing. Mind you, she said this as she was checking out her make-up... but whatever.

So... we stay after school and he takes us into this little office that's in the drama room and he closes the door.
"This is it." I thought "He hates us. He wants us out. I bet you he's Canadian. Hey.... if he kicks us out.. that means I won't even have to see my counselor about changing classes.." (See, there's an upside to everything.)

"Girls," He starts out. "You both have so much potential. I see you and I think you two will make fine actresses."

You have got to be kidding me, Method Man.

"You seem like you have so much more experience than the others."

Um... what? Dude... no.

"When I have plays I definitely want you two to be in them. I want my friends (he has friends?) and colleagues from L.A. and New York (why the hell would they come here?) to see you two (Casting agents? At a HS production? What is this, Waiting for Guffman?) and think "Wow! Look at them! They are great!" Not just great for highschoolers or good, but KILLER! (He emphasized the "killer" bit.)"

At this point, I've noticed that when he talks he kinda sounds like he is clicking something. Like he has too much saliva and its sticking to his mouth when he talks. Its gross. I almost gagged. I tried not to concentrate on it.

"We have ::click:: a drama club ::click:: and it would be fabulous (yes, he used the word fabulous) if ::click:: you joined us. Also ::click:: during the ::click:: year ::click:: we have ::click:: many pro::click::ductions that we will ::click:: be performing. I'd love ::click:: you to both ::click:: check it out. If I train you, you will be the best."

He's insane. He's a fucking method actor for G0d's sake.

Nickie and I left.
We both agreed Mr. Ilikeitintheass was gay and weird. We would not be joining drama club. I joined last year and explained to her the freaks that were in it. We don't need that.

We had no idea if we had real talent or not though. Sure HE thought so. But to us, he was a freak. So should it matter?

And dude, now, I can't leave his class. I'd feel so bad. And I really want to leave that class! I don't even care if Rick is in there. I want out.

So, eh, yea. That was my day. I'm tired now... I think I might nap..

Well, today was better than yesterday...

Still not like... a GREAT day... but... good. Good.

Sure.. I smashed my camera and my foot... but its all good in the hood.

Lunch time, let me announce to the audience, sucks. I'm not kidding. I mean, think about it- 2,000 high school aged kids crowded into one main room. There has to be some kind of fire code law thingy they're breaking there. Has to be. I hate it. lol

"But you can go anywhere on campus!" Yes, but a majority of the people choose to stay in the cafeteria.... That's a lot of people. I wonder if the school superintendent knows about this? I bet you they have no idea that this kind of thing is going on. Someone really ought to notify them. And its not like kids are gonna stop ditching either. If some kid wants to ditch, they're gonna ditch.

(Quick little note to all ditchers- They never check the auditorium halls)

What else? Oh, dude, I sit next to this hot guy in Spanish (Yes! No more Whitney!) and I realized today, he is also in that drama class I hate o so much. That was kind of spiffy.. I have to wait two weeks until I get switched out of the drama class.. ugh.

I have so much homework its not to be believed. I finished math during drama which was nice (what else was I gonna do? Sit and watch my "trained at a dog kennel" (as Matt keeps saying) teacher give pointers to a bunch of newbies who should be wearing helmets?)


So yea, I'll go do that.. the homework thing. Maybe I'll get done by 10 PM...

Oh my G0d today sucked.

Like, fucking majorly. Ok, so like first of all- Matt doesn't have second hour chem A. I like, specifically messed with my schedule so that we had it second hour together.. whatever.

Next-
The other day I made a list of 9 people I didn't want to have a class with- I have a class with about 5 of those people and the other 4 hugged me today. Ick. I only allow certain people to hug me. I don't know how many fake "Oh my g0d! I haven't seen you all summer! Hiii!! ::girly screams::" I did today.. I lost count. (Jenna, yours was NOT fake. I was so relieved to see you, you have no idea.)

What else? Um... oh my hair looked like shit. It did. I'm not kidding and everyone was like "No, its cute!" Except for Heath who's sitting next to me and has reminded me that he said it looked "perfect" which, no, it totally didn't. But thanks for the over exaggeration Heath. It made my whole fucking day worth while.

And now I have a ton of homework and its only the first day. My G0d. I swear.
You know, I went in thinking this year is gonna be awesome. I was excited (and panicky....) This year was gonna be great- and here it is a major suck and blow fest.

SUCK AND BLOW FEST 2002

Ugh... I think the worst class has to be drama.
I love drama usually but this teacher is a major ass. He's a method actor. He's one of those guys who says things like "You are an ice cream cone! You are cold! Bbbbbbrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr!" Only, actually, I was the 7 year old child who was tired. "Feel the yawns creeping up on you!" Yea... ok.
I hate him.
Plus, I think his hair is totally fake.

Toupe not a toupe?

And the kids in the class are just... ugh. Ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh, ugh. One is so fucking obnoxious and there's another one who's just frickin' weird. I don't know whether to stick it out or change classes.

I'm pretty sure Matt's mad at me... I was annoying today so whatever, but to pass right by me in the hall and not acknowledge me? That just really pisses me off.

And I'm tired. I am soo tired. I went to bed early. I did a good job at that. 11 PM. Yes, still in the PM realm of the night. That's pretty good for me. And I fell asleep almost right away, but then I woke up at 3:30 (or 3:21 AM to be more specific.) and I could not fall back asleep. So basically, I stared at my alarm clock until it went off.

What a way to start the day...

There's always tomorrow....
So I can go through the same thing allll over again- only this time I know what to expect. Oh joy.

Please g0d- Let the school burn down. Or blow up.... or something. Wait... if you're gonna blow up the school- do it after tomorrow so that I can take my graphing calculator out of my locker. Thanks.




When you say that its gonna be/it always turns out to be a different way/I try to believe you

Tomorrow is a different day

Give me a little time/Leave me alone a little while/Maybe its not too late/Not today.

Maybe tomorrow/I'm not ready/maybe tomorrow

And I want to believe you/when you tell me that it will be ok/yea, I try to believe you/not today

Tomorrow it may change/tomorrow it may change
-- Avril lavigne

Today. Today is my last day of freedom. Tomorrow begins the school year.

School.

School is where I will spend the next 10 months of my life.

I'm not depressed about it or anything though. I'm excited... and terribly fucking nervous.

"Why?! You're not a newbie anymore! Everything will be fine and you know it!"
Yea, ok, I know.... so why am I so nervous?

Everything. Everything is freaking me out.
Let me just run down the list:
Hair: My hair looked great.... Yesterday. Yesterday when the guy at the salon did it.
Today it looks like I did it. The flipping out that its supposed to do is next to impossible! I spent 12 years of my life (seriously) trying to make it so my hair DIDN'T flip out. The ONE time I actually want it to flip out- it won't... well, it does, but not how I want it.

Clothes: Does my hair style go with my clothes? I'm not sure. I have no idea.

People: What if I have people I hate in my classes? This worries me almost the most (this and the hair. I am obsessive with my hair).

So as you see- I am insane. And I think WAY too much.

If Matt's reading this he's thinking "Finally she admits this. I'm sick of telling her."

But yea. So today was spent at the Phoenix Art Museum and freaking out. (My dad thought my sister and I needed some culture today.)
The art museum was fun.. I actually like stuff like that. I love European art. The really old stuff from like... the 1700s. I mean, I'm not an expert on it or anything. I couldn't really give you artist names, but I love looking at it.

Oh, getting nervous again..

I'm gonna go try to calm down and watch Sex and the City. I tivoed it because it was on while I was doing my hair.... my hair.. my poor hair. I pray to G0d it looks good tomorrow. Please, please, please let it look good tomorrow.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!